Eat. Pray. Love.
Having watched the movie and now attempting to read the book, I have come to some undeniable conclusions. Sacha Kravig is Elizabeth Gilbert.
Looking back at the movie “eat pray love” and realizing just how much of myself was compacted into those short 133 minutes, I wonder that I didn’t cry or become excessively terrified as I watched it. Looking back, I almost wish I had. But, instead, I am offered the same odd feeling one gets after watching movies like “Julie and Julia,” or “My Fair Lady,” or perhaps “Persuasion.” This queer feeling that you should have been in that story somewhere... that perhaps a deeper pondering of that story will unleash some hidden wonder in your own life. You hope that perhaps your own biography will someday contain hints of the enchantment your found in the lives of your strong female heroes. Or perhaps your strong female nemesis...
I found that I don’t always like the people I resemble. Usually I am scared of them and vow that I’ll never become like them. And then, later on down the road, I find myself looking at these people I loathe and feeling like I’m gazing into a mirror. Luckily for me, I do not loathe Elizabeth Gilbert. Luckily for me, as I watched “eat pray love,” I didn’t mind seeing a mirror...
I did not come out with an urge to travel the world. Surprisingly. I did not come out with some insane desire to go find the man of my dreams on some enchanted evening... Also surprising. But I did come out desiring to find myself. I came out realising that all of the restlessness on earth, and all of the traveling this world can offer won’t teach me who I am. It will just keep me running... I do need to breathe deeper, take in more, and care about people more, troubles less. But most of all, I need to be able to look into the mirror of my soul and not be afraid. I need to stop squinting. I need to open my eyes wide, take a breath, and be ready for the person I will see. I need to stop loathing, I need to stop comparing, I need to stop... just stop. Stop and listen. Stop and see. And then move on, and become what I’ve always dreamed.
I don’t think that my dream personality will be found half the world away... I think it’s here in my room. I just have to be ready to embrace it.
